Allowing myself to be Seen-
Last weekend after Lodge
I was sitting by the fire praying and
A woman came up to me saying,
“I saw you arrived in a Lyft.
Do you have a ride home?”
No, I replied-
I was hoping to see a friend I knew to ride home with but I haven’t
She offered to drive me home
40 minutes out of her way in the late evening hours
With tears in my eyes
I humbling received her offer and said
Thank you
I told her that I was planning to
Silently slip away-
Walk out to the road and call a Lyft to ride home.
No need she said-
“We take care of each other here”
I shared with her that I gave up driving and
What a humbling and yet
Liberating experience, it has been
I used to drive only during daylight hours
And now- I no longer drive
I am learning how to
Be Me-
Fully embodying my Truth
Accepting my gifts and
Accepting my limitations
Just before my 38th birthday-
I received a
Message from Spirit
To give up driving
I headed the message
I am Learning to
Listen to the
Gentle whispers of
Great Spirit
So that I don’t have to
Bang my head against the wall with
The loud shouts
It was a pivotal
moment in my life
I gathered my family and
With tears in my eyes
I told them that
I would no longer be driving
The desire to be able to
Give everything to my children
Runs deep within me
I was grappling with my
Feelings of inadequacy
As if I were failing them in some way
And yet I realize now that
I am teaching them how to
Know your limits
I called council with my closest friends
Guiding them through a visualization
Attempting to demonstrate to them
How my eyes are different
I wanted them to be able to understand
What the world looks like
Through my eyes
They were all shocked-
“I had no idea you saw things so differently,” was the response
You see-
For most of my life
I have been hiding my vision from the world
I have been pretending my sight was ‘normal’
I hardly ever speak about my vision
I have never wanted to be a burden on others and
I have been afraid of exposing my weaknesses
And yet,
my inner sight is
One of my greatest gifts
To be a channel for LOVE
One also Sees
Where there is a block in the
Flow of LOVE
To see into one’s soul and know their fears, challenges and pains
This is why the healing sessions are so successful and
Why it can be challenging in my relationships
It’s not always easy to manage the energy
Without getting hooked
When you can see into the
Flow of one’s energy
there is no way to lie about
The truth of one’s feelings
This gift is not something that turns off when healing sessions are done and
Often, I see more than feels comfortable at the time
I realize now that most people do not
Remember how to
See with their Hearts
This is my gift and
This is what
I am here to Teach
It has been over 9 months since
I last drove a car
And in that time, I have
Received countless Blessings
I am Becoming Me-
Whole, complete, pure
A channel for Divine LOVE
Letting go of the false façade
Embodying my Gifts and
Learning how to use them-
In a good way
I have met an amazing woman who lives in my town
For the first time in my life-
I know a real person with RP
She is a widowed mother who lost her eyesight
while her kids were young
She has raised her children, taught classes and been an
active member of the community
All while being blind
To see her walking her dog on the bike path-
It’s hard to tell that she is different in any way
We chat when I run into her and she has
Offered to assist me
Allowing me to practice
Walking with her seeing cane
I’ve also met an Elder who is
Mentoring me in
The healing ways
I have been praying for many years
For a teacher
He is trained in
The Old ways-
Receiving the
Healing transmissions that
have been passed down from
Elder to student and elder to student
For time immemorable
Going all the way back to
When we still lived ‘in the Garden’
when ALL humans
Embodied their
Divine Truth and were
Beings fulling radiating and
Communicating through LOVE
Being a part of the
Living Traditions is
An incredible honor
I am
Learning how to
Honor the Sacred
These Traditions are
More precious than gold,
more valuable than any one individual’s life
I am Learning
How to Pray
In a good way
Protecting the gates of the most
Holy Temples of
The Goddess
I had thought my mentor would be a woman- but
There has been so much
Healing for me
in our Relationship
To be Seen Fully and Deeply by a
Man with Integrity
To share in the
Most intimate moments of
The Power of LOVE
For it is LOVE that
Heals ALL
With Clean Boundaries
in a Safe container
with Integrity and
Respect for the Sacred
I am a Learning how to
Be a channel for LOVE
My entire Being is
Reprograming to this
New way of BE-ing
Returning back to
My innocence
I am slowly learning to
Let go,
Of all that is not bringing
Health into my Life
Allowing those who are meant to
Walk alongside me
To be with me
And those who have already
Shared their medicines
I am releasing them and
I Bless them on their way
If the container is not clean
Purify or
Simply release it
Not everyone is meant to
always be in your life
I have suffered greatly
from holding on
Wanting to carry many people
with me on this journey but
My vessel is Holy and
I Choose to keep it
Safe, Clean, Holy and Pure
Your path is
Yours to walk alone
Others may join you
But no one can
Walk the path for you
We are all the Medicines and
We are all each other’s teachers
Every person has been
Sent from Creator to
Teach us something
Receive their gifts
We are all
Students of LOVE
I am learning how to
Humbly Serve
in a good way
To protect and
Honor the Sacred
To walk with Integrity
To serve all with LOVE
Thank you
Thank you for
Seeing me
Thank you for
Teaching me
I love you always and
In All ways
We are all in this together
I am you
You are me
We are LOVE
Honoring the medicines
Honoring the teachings
Honoring the Elders
To all my relations
I give thanks
My heart is doing back flips for YOU here the forest, dear soul sister….🦉 Thank You for sharing your extraordinary journey with all of us so openly…..so poetically…How beautiful your soul, the medicine you carry and all your magical ways..You are an inspiration…A bright light…Oh, how divinely you are supported to BE YOU…Spread your wings and Fly, fly, Fly!!!