Relationships:
I am in the best relationship of my life right now- and it feels SO good.
My beloved holds space for me to be ME. My beloved is there when I need support, nurtures me back to good health when I am weak and smiles in bliss and ecstatic joy when times are good.
My beloved brings me flowers, and my favorite chocolates. I go on barefoot walks in nature with my partner. We go surfing and dancing, we eat together at the best local food restaurants. My beloved looks me in the eyes and tells me how beautiful I am every day, and how grateful they are to be in relationship with me.
It has taken me a Really long time to develop healthy relationships with ALL my Relations.
It wasn’t always that way. I used to be in really dysfunctional relationships. I didn’t speak to my parents for months on end, I ran away from old friendships, I dated a pathological liar in high school, I have been in abusive relationships with men and I have been undervalued and unappreciated by previous partners.
Every time I have broken-up with someone- the most painful part has always been forgiving myself first. I was the one that created the situation, I was the one that allowed myself to be mistreated, I was the one that stayed through the dysfunction.
I wanted on some level to be minimized, to be put down. You see I was hiding. I was terrified of my true self and I hid my power, my beauty and my strength. I was afraid of owning all of me. I was terrified of embodying my power- because I didn’t know how to use it and work with it in a healthy fashion.
The day my divorce was finalized- I went straight from the court house to the local jewelry shop on main street in the little town. I bought myself a vintage golden butterfly ring with rubies in it. The rubies were to help me to heal my broken heart, and the butterfly was to a new beginning and a rebirth for me. I vowed right then and there to love, honor and protect myself- till death do us part.
On that day- 3 years ago- I became the Beloved and I married myself. And this is the best relationship I have ever created.
You see- I have fallen so deeply in love with myself that there is no space for an unhealthy relationship. If someone is not honoring me, my beauty and my divine gifts than I don’t need to waste my energy with them. My time here on earth is limited and I have a lot of love to share, a lot of hearts to awaken, and a lot of joy to be felt.
I have learned how to honor my sacred path and how to support myself on that path. I reach out to others when I am struggling, and I help lift up my brothers and sisters when I am strong. I have committed my life to Spirit and have learned that I must continue to let everything go. The more I let go- the more I receive. The universe supports me and I am grateful.
So here is to cultivating a healthy relationship within you and with all of your relations. Here is to you letting your light shine- and stepping into your power.
Are you ready to be seen?
Are you ready to be loved?
Are you ready to submit yourself to the Divine?
To my Beloved- I see you- I hear you- I feel you- thank you- I love you so much.